I have only ever felt this much joy because I have felt this much pain.
I know what it's like to suffer. To be so lost and confused you don't know where you're at in life. To question whether anyone wants you, or loves you, or if you even belong.
I've ridden the roller-coaster of ups and downs. The highs and lows of feeling full of purpose, feeling happy and then feeling loneliness. Did this loneliness ever leave? I questioned. I thought I would be miserable forever.
I journeyed back and forth between my gut instinct and intuition, sometimes listening, mostly not. The more years I wasted, the more miserable I became. I had stopped listening to my soul and surrendered to working at a Wal-Mart. I needed to learn that lesson for two years and nearly starve before awakening.
And then I traversed through travel, silent meditation in India, swinging on loves tightrope through seven countries before what felt like my whole world came crashing down.
2018 was enough to break me from the inside out. I experienced therapy and childhood healing. I was able to release and let go of a secret I'd been hiding for 20 years. I found out what it was like to have someone validate my pain, and finally forgive and release that inner child.
And I come here now, to you, to let you know you are not alone. But to also let you know of the experiences and lessons it took me the greater part of two decades to learn so you don't have to waste the time that I did.
My life was painful. My life is painful. But pain is no longer the issue, and I am grateful everyday.
Thank you for joining me in the journey, and I hope you too will learn to Thank Your Pain.